Nope, but then that's obvious.

What would i most like to change? my body, and get a house.

How am i making thse changes? I'm trying to stick to the plan again, and i'm going to exercise over the weekend. I've looked at mortgages, and now i'm looking at houses!

So, i am actually doing something. OK, maybe the situation isn't as hopeless. And i'm also not thinking about S. Although if i get into that sad and lonely groove, i will end up thinking that this is how i'm supposed to feel because i turned him down when i didn't trust blokes...