With the dawn of each new day i think about the moon. Specifically drawing down the moon.. The only thing, other than the price, which puts me off joining an introduction agency is my previous experience with Dateline magazine. I got quite a few emails, but i had no desire to reply to 40-something Londoners who are interested in 20-somethings.

Most people my age go to parties and seem naturally to meet people. I don't. I just don't know many people my age, and those i do know have never said that they knew someone who would be perfect for me to go out on a date with. SPICE is great, but most people are 30+ and are closer to 40. Or else the 20 somethings go to other events.

That is one of the reasons why i am going to try and go on a ski holiday. I'm also trying to turn myself into a 20-something professional. I know that i don't wear the right clothes (because of my weight and height) and the ones i do wear are not maintained properly(greying black t-shirts, scruffed shoes). Another reason for getting my own place is so that i can have a more easiyl acessible wardrobe. My current wardrobe is quite hard to get to, and contains "thin" clothes. I also have a free standing rack that contains "fat" clothes. The rack is easier to get to, but it takes up too much space in my already overcrowded room.

Oh, it turns out that the money i put into a stocks and shares ISA was not the right thing to do. I really needed to put the whole 7k into it, and not just 500 pounds. I am wondering whether or not to take it out, or just leave it there. After all, that 500 could be going into my house fund, bringing me one month closer to getting my own place. Or should i leave it there as an extra little saving, to grow by a few pennies? I don't know. I think i may leave it there, and then transfer it into a cash ISA later this year so that i have something there. As a young person i know i should take mroe risks with my money. Or should i take the money from an ISA and put it into a different kind of investment?

What i do know is that i am going to try and save a bit extra this month...Or not. I just rang up and found out that my bank account is about a thousand pounds less than iwould normally expect it to be...because i paid that 500 quid into the stocks and shares. I think i might have to pay in a bit a less this month. I don't like going so low.

I knew that this month would be tight, but the trouble is my memory is poor that i forgot that fact. This is what it is going to be like all the time if i buy a house, and that is a scary thought.

I decided to close the stocks and shares account. I'm far too risk averse. But i hate being poor. I hate counting every penny. And yet, i spend too much. i Spent a good hundred pounds this weekend, without even thinking about it. This month i will think about it. I need to leave myself a reminder somewhere, because i know that i will forget. Damn...and i was going to try and book myself and ski and muder mystery holiday

posted by small 3:14 PM