How did i get to be number 2 on the Clix chart?? A lot of the others seem to use sex or sexy images. Well, there will be none of that malarky here (not from a lack of wishing!).

I guess i'd better update in that case! Saturday, before Combat class, i went around every estate agent in Wylde Green, and then every one in Erdington. I was getting very disheartened. I managed to find a couple of places, but when the agents rang up, they had been sold the day before. I prayed hard that finding my own place was what i was supposed to be doing.

And then, in the very last estate agent i found somewhere. A first floor flat, in the sort of area i wanted, and at a price that was good for me.

Sunday i looked around. It would suit me very well, the only probably (and the reason why it was still up for sale) is that the owner won't look for anything until he has an offer. And he doesn't know where he wants to move to. This means that it could be a fairly long process, but has the advantage that it still gives me time to save up a little more so that i can afford some necessities.

Like a bed.

All Sunday and Monday i was alternating between excitement at getting my own place, fear at being stuck in a flat for ever and a feeling of nausea at taking on so much debt.

Monday was the wedding of my friend Spoon. It was a lovely ocassion, and she looked charming in her simply, but very elegant dress. Mind you, she is tall, slim and pretty and would look good in a bin bag.

Both Spoon and her fiance come from large families, so th church was very full. I was honoured, along with Lindsay, to be invited to the afternoon reception. The two of us are probably the only ones from Girls Brigade who have kept in touch with Spoon. Spoon didn't attend the church that we did, because the GB at her church closed down and she joined our company but kept on going to her own church (and rightly so!).

I always enjoy reading Spoon's letters, and met up with her a couple of times when i lived in Chesterfield, because she now lives in Sheffield.

I wished her, and her fiancee well with most of my heart. I cannot say all, because a small part longed for someone special so that i could have the love that she has.

I danced a little, but not much because i had work the next day.

Two days later (today) i summoned up the courage to tell the estate agent that i wanted to put an offer in for the flat. I guess i'll wait and see what happens next...

posted by small 2:08 PM