I am still angry over Derek, and how i remember that none of my friends spotted me in tears apart from one. How i wish i had a BF to go and sort him out. But that's ridiculous thinking. But then again, you have no idea how afraid i am of what might happen. Something worse.

I have a cold. I went to the gym Monday morning, Tuesday morning i woke up feeling no good, so decided to forgoe. Wednesday, at work, i felt worse. Today my cold is full on, but i actually feel better. Probably because of a decent night's sleep

I spoke with Kein-arn last night. He frightened me last year, but i am making a real effort to be nice and to put that all behind me.

Looking bck through my archives...i have absolutely NO recollection what this was about. I really don't remember planning a holiday with anyone! And i find my style of writing has changed so much. I was keeping so much inside, but my writing was flowery. Now it's plain, perhaps even dull. But it's more real.

It's just me.

Plus there is no bad poetry, and that's got to be a bonus.

I've changed so much. I stayed at home and comfort ate, and watched my "Cats" video. Now i go out a lot, although i do still comfort eat. I am becoming more open in some areas, and learning about others.

posted by small 4:22 PM