I did got to the WM course, all about pressures this week. One is very apt for me, it's the pressure of fear. I do feel fear about eating, partly because i don't feel in control about food and eating and stopping eating. I know that previously i have arranged meals and then just not turned up. But it's changing slowly.

What i actually meant to write was thati got a suprise at the gym! For the month of June i have been voted member of the month! I was quite shocked, but delighted. I get to have my photo on the wall in the gym, and i also received (which i didn't know about either) 50 pounds worth of vouchers to spend at Sensory (living well's beauty rooms). Apparently the personal trainer that i rather like nominated me and Bev (who runs the WM course) decided to back me up. I know that she had nominated another WMer (although someone who had done the course earlier), but she decided to go for me! I think it's to do with my cheery nature when i'm going through pain during body Combat!

It was rather embarassing in a way because i haven't been feeling particularly motivated and haven't really been going; although i have kept up my classes so i haven't been entirely sitting still. I know that this is a great boost for me, and will definately get me to go back there now.

Although not tonight, tonight i am going ice skating with TH2. Last nights class was spinning, so i'm nto sure that i would have actually been able to go to the gym and sit in the bike this evening anyway! Spinning was good, very tiring and i was glad that Bev just did a 30 minute class, i think i would have really struggled to do a full hour. They are going to be a doing a regular beginners class when the new programme is launched in September, and i might see if it's possible to do it.

posted by small 10:02 AM