Day 9 and i cannot say that the hunger has abated at all. I am ravenous. My CDC said it should get easier this week and next week, but i am still shakey and could chew my own arm off... Still i keep reminding myself that i lost 7.2 lbs, which is a good loss. I want to try and lose 4lbs a week, and i'm going to buy myself rewards when i get there. The first thing that i want is a nintendo ds. However, I discovered that at teh end of October they are going to bring out a pink one in Europe! So for my first stone i'm going to buy a wireless router and usb adaptor.

I am struggling somewhat, but using that and the fact that when i go to see Nerina next in November I want to have lost a significant amount!

I get a fair amount of stick at work for doing this, but i am just letting it ride over me. I am sorely tested though!

Thanks Steve, I am sticking with it! I think it's more that i have such a lot to lose that it can be a bit soul destroying. Plus i've not really thought about what happens with my eating when i start back again. I love food...

On another note my grandpa's estate got sorted out a few weeks ago, the solicitors were supposed to give grandma her money and they still have not. My mum got quite irate with them, and they aren't going not charge a fee now. I should hope not, as i feel entirely certain that they have made a nice packet from the interest. They have been terrible, not doing anything unless my mum phones up and hassles them, sending letters which are full of inaccuracies and spelling mistakes. When grandma dies (which is a rather morbid thing to think about i guess, but since we've been dealing with probate issues since 1999, there's little point in pretending that it won't happen) there is no way we will use them for grandma's estate.

Mum says that grandma is a bit frail now, and when my exam and revision time is over, i'll start going up with mum to visit her. No eating though which is going to be mega hard. Mum also says that my sister is getting too thin. She is going to the gym a lot...guess mum can't win.

I'm organsing an evening out with work at a pub, which means i'm having to look at menus for snacks, this is so hard!

Ok i'm going to think about my wireless network and then my pink DS.

In an effort to move more i went and did my walk around Brookvale. The sailing club was out and it was hard not to stop and just watch the boats with pale blue sails glide over the lake! I don't think it's something that i can do weeknights though, it's too far from the road and too many bushes and quiet spots around for me to feel safe (there is a lot of graffitt and litter, which makes me think that some unruly elements of society do go there).

posted by small 4:01 PM