My scales and my CDC's scales seem to vary a bit, so i'm going on what my scales say - and according to them i finally did manage to lose that 4lbs! Woohoo! I lost a pound over the weekend, and if i can lose another 3, by next weekend i should be bang smack on 15 stone and slipping down into the 14's. This is a big achievement for me.

My CDC seemed surprised that i still feel hungry, and boy do i ever. But at this point in time the weightloss is balancing out. I keep focusing on that and i don't eat. Tomorrow is going to be hard. I've had to organise a night out for work. Now normally i wouldn't go, but i guess since i organised it i should go. No drinking and no food whilst everyone else is scoffing nachos is going to be very hard (as i do like nachos). I may eat a little chicken to try to blend in...

I don't like sticking out, and this crazy diet is definately making me do that. But i keep focusing...according to the graphs i could be at my bmi by march....although how much of that will be horrible lose baggy skin?

I went a bit crazy on spending this weekend. I put myself in the queue for a WII and a pink DS lite, which came to 40 quid together, and i spent 30 quid on clothes and accessories at newlook and a bought the router as a present to myself for losing a stone! Good job i got a "bonus" in this months payslip. The bonus is instead of a payrise...lets not go there. Although before you comment, i did get a good end of year review. To get a pay rise i have to get another role, and i'm trying to do it as i really would like payrise! So all of the above is coming out of my bonus.

I could cheerfully murder a tuna jacket right now. I had 4 little tins of tuna at work, and i took them home this week. Charlie has been loving his little treat! I suspect that he wishes the tins were larger though!

I worked my way through block 1 and 2 over the weekend. By Sunday night i couldn't take anymore and i pored through some cookery books (which are now like porn to me). It's weird but even the salads look really tasty to me now. Maybe when i'm back eating again i'll be eating more salads and fruit and veg in general...
<>POne of the guys at work is sick of me ot eating and wanted to know how long i'm going to keep it up. He was appalled when i said that it would probably be until March (if i lose 4lbs each week). He mentioned Christmas and that there would be a lot of eating.

This is true, although i am planning on only eat christmas dinner at mum's and nothing else. I can make it healthy by eating meat, veggies and only a little potato. I'm so disciplined right now that i think i could do it and go straight back to sole source the next day. By December i could potentially be 11 stone 12 and that would surely be enough to spur me to get back on plan. Wow 11 stone 12, it's been probably 6 years since i've been that slim...

My CDC wanted to know if anyone had commented, but honestly unless you look really closely you probably can't tell that i've lost weight. I think when i hit the 12's that people will really be able to see a difference. I'm not losing it from my face, but from around my stomach and i have a long way to go.

Stop it! I'm not going to dwell on that.

I played too much katamari. Saturday night i was dreaming about rolling things up...

Oh no... someone has got chips from the canteen and has brought them back to their desk....help..the smell....so good...

posted by small 1:30 PM